Rheumatoid Arthritis: Value in Stillness

I haven’t done a great many posts on tips lately. Mostly it is because I am doing all I can to get through each day.  I don’t have a lot of energy and what I do have is shared with my family.  I turned a corner the other day and I wanted to share what happened.

My knees have been causing me so much pain lately that a restful night’s sleep has evaded me.  If I don’t move in bed I start to cramp up and if I try to move I am in a lot of pain. So needless to say every 30 minutes to an hour I am awake.

I was lying in bed the other day and I was contemplating my current situation.  I was going over in my head what was going on in my life. I considered the amount of stress I have been under and how I have tried to deal with it. I was also evaluating my diet and trying to figure out what might be causing the increased inflammation and pain and what I was going to do about it.  There are so many variables that can effect how I feel it’s hard to pinpoint which part of my life and routine is causing all this pain. I needed to figure out if anything I was doing was having any impact at all.  While I was lying there pondering all these factors all I could think of was the only time I am not in pain is when I am still.

I was irritated that in being still the world was going on without me.  All I could think was I can’t live like that either, spending the entire day not moving to avoid pain is not really a solution to my problem. Then it hit me, maybe I was looking at this all wrong.  Maybe the universe was trying to tell me that I needed to be still.

I sat with that thought for a while.  Maybe I needed to stop fighting the stillness and just for a while embrace it.

So I did.

I welcomed the stillness in my body and my mind.  I stopped fighting and was simply still.

I don’t know that if in that moment of acceptance my body and mind connected, but I do know that when I woke the next morning I had slept the entire night without waking from pain.  Since then I have been experiencing significantly less pain and inflammation.  I am not pain free nor am I inflammation free but in the days since I feel like I am at a manageable level.

Before this realization I was really afraid that I was either going to have to go back on medication to control the pain and inflammation or I was going to have to live with things the way they were.  I wasn’t really sure that I would be able to do that.  All that pain, takes it’s toll on my spirit. All that pain takes it’s toll on my family.

I had gotten away from meditation for a while.  Life had gotten busy. Priorities changed.

I won’t let that happen again.  I need to take the extra time for the stillness.  In embracing the stillness, my body has thanked me.

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10 thoughts on “Rheumatoid Arthritis: Value in Stillness

  1. Donna Hays

    Hi, the stillness is when God talks to people. Most people don’t realize that and miss the message God wants us to hear. Sometimes it the answer to our prayers. Other times its something we need to do or quit doing.

  2. Lana

    “Maybe the universe was trying to tell me that I needed to be still.”

    JoAnne,

    Sometimes that is all we can do. If this is what your body is telling you to do, then embrace it.

    I am sorry that you are going through all this. I hope this flare-up does not last too long. I love reading your tips and your experience makes living with this disease clearer.

    Take care,
    Lana

  3. Maria

    The stillness you describe is like the moment I stopped struggling and started realizing that my body was panicking just as much as my mind was. Basically, we both just shut up for awhile…amazing what a little “time out” can do, eh? Glad you’re feeling better each day~

  4. Pam

    I’m glad you had this epiphany!
    I still get annoyed by the people who tell me “you can’t just lie in bed all day”, as if they knew.

  5. robin

    Jo-Ann,
    I also had this realization awhile back, but had forgotten, Thank you for reminding us that we don’t need to fight it all the time, but embrace it.
    Robin

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