As I said lately it’s been and up and down thing. This morning was a way down day. I had a hard time sleeping last night because every time I tried to move it hurt. My knees have really been bothering me these days and unfortunately I need them to move in bed.
So after a very long night, I struggled down the stairs to shower and start the day. The warm water helps to ease some of the stiffness. My hands are not where I want them to be but overall really not that bad. My feet are doing really well, but my knees are really swollen and painful. The shower helped, but it was only a small improvement.
As I got to the bottom of the stairs I took a deep breath. It felt like I was about to tackle a mountain. Those 13 stairs may as well have been a mountain; it was going to be a challenge. I needed to summon up the strength to make it up those stairs. One at a time. Slowly and painfully. Before I could brave this project, I turned and said to my husband “I need wings.” He laughed and said he thought that was a great idea.
It got me to thinking how nice it would be if every time I needed to go from one floor to another or even one room to another I could just flap my wings and glide to my destination. When I am still there is no pain it is just the movement that is the problem, so a method of transportation that did not involve pain would be amazing. A girl can dream, can’t she?
I know that this is a temporary situation and that with time I will again figure out what works for my body. I am reminded though, that it takes a great deal of courage to have rheumatoid arthritis and keep moving forward, despite the pain. Even if it is only going up and down a flight of stairs.